My biggest leak has always been emotional control.

I spew in the chat and feel better instantly.

While i don't condone this (and am embarrassed by it), i gotta admit it cracks me up when others do it (ie. ziigmund REALLY goes off! _FullFlush1_, etc )


Really though, it's less personal than it is simply "venting". It hurts MY image more than theirs.

What's really funny is that most of the time when i BLOW UP it's because i MYSELF made the most retarded play possible.

Seriously though, unacceptable. If i don't do it live at a table, i shouldn't do it online. It's just... easier to go on monkey tilt online.

Anywho i'm embarrassed, but glad it's gone (for now) so i am forced to address this "leak". Talk is/can be part of my game (i'm good at inducing others to spew, or target me specifically!), but slandering others to vent is a no no.

Funny, sometimes... Rude/unacceptable, always.

I thought the word "Zen" was used in the initial post description!

Not very Zenlike SDS!!

Master that tilt control grasshopper. Be at one with the cards. Yadda Yadda Yadda.

Actually, does that works at the lower levels? Goading people into targeting you? I usually just wait till someone else picks off the table bully and then have a quiet little chuckle to myself, usually when they have their one decent hand cracked!

I guess all is fair in love and war and it is a strategy game. One man's strategy is another man's foible.

Peace.

BTW analogue, your points well taken. ANY feedback is appreciated if it's constructive/helpful is some way. I know i'm an asshole online. I don't LIKE being an asshole, but i can't avoid the fact that i tilt 100% easier online than live. I need to address it, that's why i'm posting FTP's actions

I agree, losing chat is the best thing for me at this point.


Sounds like you caught me in the middle of senseless monkey tilt and methodical mind-screwing.

I generally only mention stats (without even looking at their stats! - LOL) if i'm trying to induce action and force a bad/sloppy player to "step up" to prove himself. This often puts a target on my back, and my playing style/ranges love action when i enter pots!

Thanks again for support/feedback and seeing past my ****-talking ways. LOL


Reflecting, i believe the reason my graphs/stats do not show (significantly) the times i AM on crazy monkey tilt is because i DO vent in the chat. I can move on instantly and detach. Not a justification, but a reason. I can easily see how bottling it up (after being sodomized by a donkey), can lead to alpha-tilt mode and massive spewing and loss-chasing. I need a stress-ball or meds. I can admit that.

PS analogue, i think the "goading" strategy works BEST at the lower levels. Players high up know damn well they have nothing to prove, are less prone to emotional-based pride matches (mostly they're skill-based pride matches, right?), and also see my blah-blah actions for what they are, intentional tilt-talk.

Down low the players will more often stand up for their wicked-awesome poker skills after something as simple as "that explains why you're a losing player" by making one awful decision too many, and because they're playing more pots with ME out of spite/ego (under illusion of proving skill) it gives me more opportunities to take advantage of the dead money.



OMG, did i just admit to being Jaime Gold? Dear god.


Bottom line though, I can be an asshole online and need to stfu. My mentality should be "if i wouldn't do it live i shouldn't do it online".

No, you had it right. His stats were AWFUL! I mean hideously awful!

Hence the reason he couldn't lay down AK irrespective of what was bet and what was on the board.

He should have just been playing Push or Fold poker imo with that mindset.

I never said you were an a*shole by the way. I am merely making a suggestion that, at the time, and given this most recent post, that if you have any improvement to make, then this is the area.

I mean as a player I think you have me outgunned 100 to 1. But as I said, the one big improvement that I have made is all but eliminating tilt/steam from my game.

I know you said that all players "tilt", but the extent of my "tilt" is saying to myself "wow that was a pretty dumb play - I can't believe they called with that and hit", then reviewing the hand odds, betting pattern etc and seeing if I could have played it differently.

Like I said at the low levels 95 % of the population want to give you all of their money - take it and be happy! Thank you very muchly

^^^ I am a self-proclaimed asshole! So it's ok to address me as such when it's clear i am being one.

Emotional control has been a LIFE leak of mine forever, but i have already seen improvements in my way of thinking because of this thread and actually confronting my leaks. Me thinks the biggest leak i have to fix is one that may ultimately require meds. LOL no joke.

It's been too easy in the past to ignore leaks, and this thread forces them into the light. However embarrassing it is, it's good for me.

30 gallons of Pale Ale anyone! Self-medicating here I come!!

Sorry I just realised that I am clogging your blog with this shite anyway, back to the poker!

Not doing very well today so far, but hopefully i can turn it around by end of day.


In the following hand my opponent had already shown down a wide range vs my preflop raises, and has gotten VERY aggressive after my checks previously, obv scooping. I give him some rope here on the flop but he declines. He chooses the turn instead to pounce, and my call took a milli-second.





I'll be stepping up the next couple days to playing more $3-6 consistently, i have been busy last few days and not in the right mindset to play 4-5 hours MTTs. I need to hit my goal of one 1st place cash asap.

Cya!


EDIT: Shoot me. When you're accidentally betting 1 too many zeros (to "woops im all in" yourself), you shouldn't be playing.

I spew in the chat box a lot too. I hate that I do it because I'm actually a really nice guy, but it beats holding it in and getting an ulcer...

I've gotten my chat banned about 4 times and it should be a lot more, but I don't get reported all the time. It's not personal, but if I don't spew, I might smash thing instead.

Or maybe I'm actually an asshole masquerading as a nice guy. Who knows?

Either way, emotional control is also my biggest problem, so I can empathize. You'd definitely be able to tell from my sharkscope graph. haha.

I hear ya Taquitos, i've been through a few keyboards and mice in my day. And i feel like such a moron afterwards every time. Thankfully i haven't broken anything lately, except my pride/ego.




Well, I'm beginning to see some light today. I was a bit down earlier as my MTTs were going horribly again, but then i realized that MTTs are supposed to have high variance. The best thing one can do (if they can manage) as they play a lot of MTTs, is counter the high variance with SnGs at the same time, or a healthy dose of both.

I've been focusing too much on cheap MTTs, and not enough on building my roll at SnGs. I need to shift my attention back to my main goal and play MTTs on the side, not the other way around. I still plan to hit a 1st place win in a $3+, 90+man MTT before i move up, but no need for it to be on the top of my list.

I don't know why this makes me nervous... but i would like to try a high-volume HU PLO session tomorrow from $6-11 (i prefer turbos HU, ppl make more mistakes). I don't want to step over $11 because of volume, and i may very easily tilt and donk off 3-6 buy-ins at $22 level. This amount is also likely from pure variance alone. Spweing 3-6 buy-ins at $22 would be a very bad day. I think if i stick to the $6-11 rules i should be OK, and i think 4 hours at this pace should be enough to give me a good idea of my potential daily win-rate at said volume/game/stakes.

As it is now, i play HU PLO "when i feel like it" or when i'm feeling pressure from losing MTT buy-ins, and for whatever reason this pace of play has been successful, despite small but obvious PLO variance in graphs. I'll take a stab at it, but i won't multi-table. The turbo PLO HU games are fast enough (12 min. max, usually 5 min.) so that i don't need to multi-table. Multi-tabling this format would probably kill my BR anyways.


Despite dumping about $40 into MTTs in the last 3 days, i'm currently sitting on $670 mostly thanks to PLO HU.


I'm planning to add the visual hand replayer that is seen above to ALL previous/future hands posted, but i'm waiting for the admins/mods approval.


CLIFFNOTES:

- Play 4 hour session tomorrow PLO HU from $6-$11 only. NO $22.
- Focus less on MTT and more on building BR.
- BR at $670 despite $40 MTT losses over 72hrs.
- Waiting for admins to approve HH replayer so i can clean up blog.



PS - Does anyone else crack a smile when playing a HU game and your opponent "declines" a rematch, despite it being in your best interest to play them again?

Well I told you that top pair is THE nuts at these levels - looks like I was wrong - obv bottom pair IS!

Lol - how many mice/keyboards/walls would you have gone through if he spiked a k or 3 on the river! A few I'm guessing.

Personally I like the replayer graphical interface in your blog, because it adds a different dynamic to it - actually plain text is hardly dynamic, so I guess it adds dynamics fullstop.

Visually these hands are very amusing.

I like what you said about focussing too much on mtt's - i'm doing that atm where my main +roi was/has been from stt sng's - I don't enjoy them as much as mtt's but it's where you can solidify and improve your bankroll as you dodge the minefield of variance in mtt's.

Good thoughts! I need to re-focus my game.

Anyway glad you are continuing to do well and maintaining very solid brm.